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Watching myself give last week's presentation, was excruciatingly painful. I even hate hearing my own high-pitched voice over answering machine. The positive notes are that I was decently dressed, as I usually always try to look at my best or at least professional before any presentation and it was overall much better than any other presentation I have recently given. I have to say that I wasn't trying to present my thesis idea, as I thought it was an exercise more focused on the actual presentation skills than anything else. Given that disclaimer, I did a slightly better job than expected and although I had rehearsed a million times, I am starting to believe that I do a better job when I haven't rehearsed than when I have, as improvisation when I used to perform was what I did best. Now, to the negative notes: my voice doesn't seem very well modulated or controlled as my emotions highly transpire and I never seem to look confident enough. I did do a decent enough job not to look at the screen too often, but I also don't seem to engage in truthful and sincere eye contact since I sort of glance over people. I think I sound competent and experienced but my tone is fairly boring and my body language very uncomfortable. There is definitely more room for betterment and maybe repeating in front of a mirror was what made this presentation slightly better than the past.