I’ve always been the one trying to understand what is going on around me, inside my head and on my body. Every word I am saying, everything that I am doing has a root. They don’t appear out of thin air. Everything that I got exposed to growing up effect the way that I cope with stress, the way that I am sensitive to certain things. There are triggers out of my control. How come all I could think about is working on a project but somehow I never find a time for it. In other hand something that I don’t feel so drawn to is so easy to accomplish. My body has certain prewired or learned reactions to events. And I am not completely aware of it.
I’ve never understood why it was so important for me to question what I am feeling, what I am thinking. I just wanted to know more I guess. I want to know a lot about what my senses are doing in a period of time and how they are effecting what I am writing at this moment too.
Another reality is the brain is not so isolated from the body. Any psychologic instance has an affect in the body. Maybe because of our physiological response the prefrontal cortex realizes that there is something going wrong or different. I think I always sensed. Always wanted to find an explanation to my feelings and actions.
I want to listen to my anxiety, to my fears and when do I get comfortable with a task. The ultimate goal is to having the cues to say “you stress my out! ”
This all above is the reason.